Life is gruesome.
There isn’t any question mark. Something we always view as truth needs no such thing. Why we should ignore the fact and go on our life puzzles me a lot. We seems to have no choice but to endure all the difficulties and pray for a better day in every single moment. However, things mostly don’t go like we have expected. There are some ways to ruin all the plans, and mostly it couldn’t be blamed solely on us. It’s just how it is, nothing could be changed or have changed.
How I envy those who can live more than life. They are shining life sun, getting to know what they want at a young age and go for it with full strengths. They have instincts in the future and long for it and go for it while I am literally striking around and doing nothing to make the future shine a little. The light that lit by my dream are dimming every single day and I couldn’t get myself up to light it again.
Now, I am writing an article that so terrible that I would give a F if I could. I was TA back then and this one would definitely earn my special award. A half of a year after graduation, I am losing my literal skills. I am also losing the skills that have been sharpened in school days like translating Chinese into English and vice versa. Last week, I tried to work on the translation of one particular work I liked and I dropped my pen in the first review of my work. It’s so horrible that I tore that paper into half.
That’s what time does to his followers. You follow the path gradually and then you lose yourself completely. Counting every day and waiting for death gracefully taking you, people are nothing more than animals. We have brain to think but no brain to figure out a way to escape. It’s ironic that some people think we human races are better than the livestock we share on dinner table.
Some people insist on finding silver linings in every thing. What they have no idea is that we should have light, then it would be possible to shed a little through the clouds.
Light is the key but you just can’t find it.
How Gruesome life should be.